To begin with, I have gone back home to Cairns. While I’m incredibly grateful to be surrounded by the love and support of my family, adjusting to this new reality for the next few weeks has been challenging. It’s a strange feeling how two weeks can feel like an eternity. Every day just blends into the next, as if I’m trapped in this never-ending cycle. Wake up, eat, ice and move my knee, sleep, repeat. The boredom is suffocating, and time feels like it’s standing still, draining me entirely.
Every day brings a rollercoaster of emotions, mixing between hope and frustration. Despite the challenges, I've come to realise that this journey is not only just about physical healing. It's also about mental and emotional resilience. Tasks that once felt so simple – like walking, straightening or bending my knee, and even regaining feeling in the left side of my leg, now feel like significant milestones. It’s a harsh realisation to see something that once came naturally now a distant goal.
I find myself celebrating small victories, like putting my socks and shoes on for the first time post-surgery, but it’s a reminder of how far I still have to go. Healing is undeniably a gradual process, and patience has become a crucial part of my life now and for the journey ahead. Every small victory, every moment of progress, no matter how tiny, is a step forward. It's about celebrating these little milestones and keeping the bigger picture in mind.
In these moments of struggle and frustration, the presence of my family has been my greatest comfort. Their unwavering support and love have made this difficult journey a bit more bearable for the time being. Though the road ahead is still long, knowing that my family is just a phone call away and feeling surrounded by those who truly care for me gives me strength to stay positive. Even though it’s only been a few weeks, this experience has already taught me a lot about myself and the importance of gratitude. I am grateful for the things I once took for granted, like the simple ability to move without pain. I am grateful for the incredible support system I have around me. And most importantly, I am grateful for the strength I’ve found within myself to keep pushing forward, one step at a time.
“grateful for the things I once took for granted”
As I continue this journey, I know there will be good days and bad days. There will be moments of joy and moments of doubt. But with the love of those around me and a renewed sense of determination, I am ready to face whatever comes next. This is a reminder that healing is a multi-factored process. It's not just about mending the physical wounds but also about strengthening the mind and essence. Each day brings new challenges, but it also brings new opportunities for growth and self-discovery. Embracing the journey, with all its ups and downs, is essential to finding true healing and resilience.
This obstacle right now might feel like the end of the world, but looking back in a few years, it might have been the best thing that could have happened to me. It gives me the opportunity to work on the things I never had or were weaknesses of mine. If I stay positive, which I know I will but it will be hard, I'll come back from this fitter, faster and stronger.
In my next blog post, I'll share an overview provided by my physio detailing what the next 9-12 months of my rehab journey will look like.